Laughing Through the Dark Times

So I can be a very very petty person when it comes down to a lot of things. And one of those things is being invited somewhere where I know everyone is going to dislike me, and I fucking love it!

If you follow along long enough you have realized that a girl I was dating likes to torture me and every time I start to get over her she hits me back up. And me being a masochist, I answer and play into it usually. Well this time she invited me to her 30th birthday party with all of her friends and her mother who I have never met. So me being me I have to be the best dress there, have the most personality there, have the most swag there, and just overall be the person that her friends look at her and go “you are an idiot!”.

So I messaged her today asking her if there was a dress code or a theme and she’s replied back quickly nope it’s casual bar attire; perfect. Now with this being stated if it was full dress nice to the 9s; I have the perfect outfit for that ready to rock. However, it just being a casual event I just got in some new clothes that are stylish as fuck that are going to make me look fly.

Now the thing is she has hit me up multiple times this week and every time it’s been flirtyish talking like we used to and I’ve been very dry because I’m not trying to fall into that trap again. But at the same time I can’t help but want to talk to her and reciprocate the conversation.

I feel like she is fishing to see if I am still available and what not. I know she’s been keeping tabs on me through her friend, adding me on Snapchat and Instagram just to watch me. Now today she texts me telling me I can bring someone tomorrow if I want too.

Now this can be taken one of two ways; she wants me to bring one of the homies to make me feel less awkward. Or, she wants to know if I am dating someone and if I am I can bring them there.

The only way I can see it being option two is if she wants to try with me again or because she is dating someone that is also going to be there. I think it’s the later of the two and she is dating someone and is just fishing.

All I know is I am going to be me and laugh and joke and bullshit and get everyone to tell her she is an idiot for letting me go.