Laughing Through the Dark Times

So tonight I went out with a couple friends a good time we went to a emo punk rock concert in the downtown area. And now the aftermath of coming home a little bit buzz / drunk lol. However I’m still in the right state of mind to realize I have some f***** up s*** in my life.

The girl I was dating no longer wants anything to do with me even after trying to be friends with me and I’m pretty sure trying to hook up at least one last time when we were both drinking together a couple weeks ago. Now I go out to a concert with some friends having a good time and I find out from the girl I was dating that one or more of those people I’m with I can’t trust.

I was told that one or more of the people that I was just with had since the girl I was dating a bunch of stuff about me talking a lot of s*** and saying a lot of bad things about her. Which if you know me and I know none of you do I don’t talk s*** about anybody; And if I do I have no problem saying it to your face. I was raised where if I have something to say say it to their face Don’t be a b**** about it and say it behind your back.

Come to find out one of my ” good friends ” is apparently sending the girl I was dating a bunch of stuff showing that I apparently hated her which isn’t true and talked a lot of s*** about her which also isn’t true. And now I went out with my good friends and I invited my one friend with me who is a female, well it turns out the female is the reason me and the girl was dating are not together.

My female friends is one of the four best friends that I have and yes we have traveled together multiple times we have gone away together with groups of people but we have never dated we have never hooked up you have never done anything of the sort because we know our friendship is more than that and we don’t want to damage it collectively. Well I find out that that is a big reason me and the girl was dating are no longer together is because she cannot trust me along with my friend meanwhile my friend lives in Florida.

Now I go out with this group of people plus I might my friend that lives in Florida because she’s up here for a couple weeks and all of a sudden my friends are in great perfect fine to complete hostility towards her. And I know they were talking s*** about her and then they were talking s*** about me I don’t give a f*** if they’re talking s*** about me. And I know she doesn’t give a f*** is a talking s*** about her. However we’re all adults in our 30s why the f*** are we acting like we’re in high school?!

Now I have zero problems with the girl I was dating she broke it off decided we can’t be friends I understand. Our mutual friend that hooked us up she should understand as well however she doesn’t because she does not like my friend apparently.

Well I am home drunk with my dog after multiple hours of drinking with them all and putting everything into perspective and realized that it’s not me for the first time ever. Now I know the girls dating thinks I’m the bad guy. She told me this herself. Apparently I did not own up to ” my mistakes “. My only mistake was assuming she was hooking up with another dude. Other than that she never wanted to make anything official she was always needing a break between us because of her stress levels and me being the generous person I am and trying to break old habits let her have all these demands. Unfortunately that is what our demise was based off of.

Now we tried to be friends It lasted about 6 days before we got into a real conversation about me and her and she basically started saying I am not the person that wants to have these hard conversations. Meanwhile I have screenshots and texts from her saying she needs a break she doesn’t want this she doesn’t know what’s going to happen blah blah blah. Now I know I’m an a******. But I know I did not do anything wrong to her.

The real question I have right now is do I confront my friends about them being kind of two-faced? Personally I don’t really care I just know to be smarter for the future. I know only to tell my core group of friends which is four or five people. I know I do not like drama I do not like extra conversations that don’t need to be had, however these people apparently thrive on drama. Which is something I’ve just recently learned.

I don’t know what to do. Either way I’m going to end up the bad guy either with the girl I was really into and I really saw a future with, or, my really good friends group who has kind of adopted me into their close niche and I deal with their drama as well now.

What would you do in the situation? Do you slide with your good group of friends or the girl you were trying to make it with?. Let me know in the comment section below